unreazonable rat(e)s for the workin klass

last weekend, my family & i went to terengganu heritage bay club (kelab teluk warisan trg in bahasa melayu) for sight-seeing. over there, we just took photos plus some vids for remembrance. of course, the place looked so damn exclusive for the record. curious, we went ahead asking its staff about the rates for a night. first, the cheapest was 1k++ for starters. then, the not cheapest nor most expensive could be had for close to 2k. lastly, the most money sucking madness was at 2888 for the filthy rich. fyi, the room types are named after trees for example cemara i believe. "gladly", i was told that now was the promotion period of 380 the cheapest until june for all. well, the club is just not for me...

tortoise's difficult choices

this morning, i found a tortoise in the backyard of my house. not sure where it came from. either it crawled by itself into my house compound from the front gates or someone simply put it there. i was told that it was there since yesterday.

looks like the tortoise is now stuck there. what should i do now? keep it as a pet or let it out/go? poor shy tortoise...

i even checked out the net on its diet just in case it becomes my pet. well, looks like it can just survive on wild grass plus other green leaves. but the net also talks about keeping a balanced and proper diet for tortoises. how can i expect me to do that when in reality i don't even know how to take care of my own self?

latest update, the tortoise was missing from my backyard already... :( .....................................................................................................
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when i grow up, i want to be...

a scientist, an it professional, a government servant, a lecturer, ...

what other choices do i have? do i have any?

these words of mathematical wisdom are from a t-shirt(?):

i am nobody.
nobody is perfect.
i am perfect.

nobody's perfect

i wish i was flipped once
so that i could flip someone else
i wish my eyes wouldn't twinkle
so that i wouldn't miss life not even for a split second
i wish i could fly high in the sky
but it is already everyone's wish
i wish i have never lied
but there's no way i will always be pissed off
my eyes are not heavy
i wish they are
my songs are but a few
i wish there are more
my heart works hard
i wish it would slow down
anatomically disabled
i wish it would slow down

invitation

please feel free to waste our time
fearless of you
come and join the fun now
the fun is here to stay
through the air
view the air
breathe the air
wipe your feet and wash your hands
fearless of you and you alone
if you don't mind that we don't mind
the fun is here to stay
if this really makes you proud of me
then it makes me proud of you
this is the achievement for today
this is not something to be proud of
this is the pleasure of the maker
this is everyone unlike yourself

local anthem

they came to me
and wasted all my life
they still come to me
they still wanna waste my life
strike me down to the ground
as green as the grass, dominant brown sand
as blue as the sky, the rain falls
those roofless ruins
all soaked
struck down to the ground in a matter of time
buried deep inside, deep inside the earth i'm dead

selfish

there are times
when you are so depressed
and you wish you were dead
trying to win their hearts
but yours is left alone
losing everything
eating marbles everyday
spitting marbles everyday
you know it happens
you made it happen
getting weaker everyday
getting dumber everyday
you know it happens
you made it happen
now it's time
to see you glow
and your wish is my wish too
now i'm there
if not for you
for me
i'll be there
not for you
for me

intrasituation

situationalists versus whatever
terms taken from somewhere
bombastic words escape my mind
plain words flow like a river
the creation of a standard
no need to jump nor to dive
the outside and the inside out
well come in and take no side
(i saw a rainbow)
impressionism on the tv
who is going to express what?
what do they want to show the world?
what do they want to achieve?
the earth is aging
how old is she?
why bother about her not you?
how old are you?
(i pointed to the rainbow)
i'd win for sure if you'd lose
i'd pull the trigger of your life
i'd like to laugh, ha, ha, ha, ha
i'd like to smile :)
i'd smell something burning
i'd burn something smelly

not a reality

it's not that easy
to face it
i'll never finish it
that might be the fact
i've been trying out for you
but everything's in vain
i'd better stop
and quit
enemies! they're everywhere!
enemies! it's not fair!

"be like me"

to sleep like a princess
no pillow and no bed
lying on a concrete floor
paving the way for other concrete inhabitants
you said, "be like me"
to talk like a chimpanzee
no better things to do
it's fine with you but not with me
laughing like a hyena but not quite a hyena
you said, "be like me"
"be like me"
to cry like a baby
to mourn like a widow
to rule like a daddy
to follow like a shadow
i do hope it's my own shadow