i have a bike & a complaint

picked up the free bicycle. instead of taking it for myself to be used for exercising around the village, i opted to take a kid's bicycle for my daughter. if i'm to take an adult bicycle, it will rot at its place for display anyway. i already have many avenues to exercise: that static bicycle in the living room which actual name i forgot, the push-up bench in the 3rd cum store room, etc. i also don't know if there's even etc. my daughter was so happy to have a better bicycle. so, to officiate it, since she looked so impatient to use it immediately, i allowed her to follow me disposing of my household waste to the nearest local council's garbage bin. i was on scooter & she followed me on her new, shiny bicycle, at night... kids are indeed very impatient... can cause their parents to lose their patience sometimes... :)

every time a muslim tried to justify a proper islamic dressing code for muslim women, there will always be a fellow muslim, (if he/she even deserves to be called a muslim,) who will sort of fight to death against that proposal. i don't really care if it comes from a non-muslim, but a muslim himself/herself??? i'm not the one who can determine whether he/she will/should rot in hell or not in the hereafter. however, i think i have my right in these modern days of so-called freedom & equality to say this to him/her: may you rot on earth!

bollywood & change of heart

mesyaer to nehe... bollywood oh bollywood! what art thou? what do thou have behind thou? have thou had thy dinner yet? art thou coming for dinner? what benefits art thou giving?

saw the news that ezam, ex-pkr has officially joined umno. the rumors have been circulating for a few days already & now it's confirmed to be true. he mentioned that he joined umno coz he needs a correct "fighting" platform but i noticed that he never mentioned his fight is for the truth or otherwise. whatever the reasons behind his action, i hope he will stick to his usual self of fighting against & exposing wrongdoings without any fear or favor.

got feedback & i have also realized that putting up all those songs here really3 slow down the process of loading this page. so, i'll just put 1 song at a time. once i feel like it's time for a new song, i'll change. if there's any request for a particular song, i'll put it up, still 1 at a time. like the songs are popular enough to deserve such a request... :)

decision making is a pain in the 45s process

the ceo still wanted me to think about me moving out of it into other dept!!! give it a thorough thought, he said. there's no future for it in this company. it's better if i can give my decision sooner than later. how could i directly say no to a ceo... what should i do? what would u do?

i've been thinking of getting my own domain name. coming up with the right & available name is 1 thing. getting a reliable domain name/hosting company is another. paying a reasonably cheap annual fee is yet another. the purpose is just to point this blog to that domain name. not really sure if it's really worth it or not.

my wife's eldest brother & family are at my home now. in transit from kt before departing to kl early tomorrow morning. he told me that he used to drive straight to kl without needing to spend the night somewhere in between the journey. i also notice that lately i also can feel tired & sleepy easily while driving to/from kl. sometimes, i have to stop by the roadside to take a supposed-to-be-short-but-ended-up-long nap. how time is running out for all of us...

bonus nostalgic posting

at last the salary & bonus were in!!! later than the rest but they're in anyway. a late bloomer. so, i'm still gonna jump in happiness... yahoo! yippa! undre! yet, all those will be gone in a split second... to settle whatever debts that i have that u can think of. actually, it's good by the way. soon, i'll be debt-free, ridden of all those feelings of a heavy debtor... well, not really completely debt-free but almost...

i'm being a little bit nostalgic lately. that's why u can see all the old school songs on the left. they're gonna take a very while to download/load. sorry for the time & bandwidth that they're gonna cost. and sorry for the very2 bad recordings. what do u expect from an amateur/group of amateur, part-time, leisurely, so-called musicians anyway? i think all of us were hobbyists. and we were a bunch of lazy students who had no money and were living off the govt fund, who in turn is "living off" the taxpayers' money, and most of us are paying the govt back now. i for one am paying a quarter of the loan right now since 2003. still have about 5-6 years to go.

a little bit about work, though i don't really have the heart to mention about it here. the erp application is using the new isp line in the small island down under. previously, it was on another isp. but the new uk-based isp is about to be acquired by somebody else now. their stock has been suspended & the ceo has resigned due to bank pressure. i read somewhere that an india's isp is buying the new isp. last read that the deal is already done but not really sure if it's really india's isp. my main point is that i have to reconfigure all erp application user's workstations to point to the new line! quite a troublesome work to do...

gotta have a bath & go to work now...

help! i'm stuck!

why is everybody trying to lure it guys out from it? 1 attempt after another. are they really sincere? are they under pressure? how could i tell?

stumbled upon another old friend by the name of aidil azha. he's with exxon mobil now. after work, helped so'u' again going to his potential rented house in kerteh. don't know if he's gonna like the house. up to his preference.

the 3 bikes were ready at noon but i was only able to pick 'em up at 9pm++. since i've got the bicycle voucher, i'm thinking of getting a bigger & better bicycle for my daughter this weekend. she's already 8 years old but still using bikes for 5 years old! pity her...

got my salary slip with bonus inside but since i'm using a non-conventional, non-official bank from the point of view of the company, the crediting will always be late by 1-5 days depending on many factors such as weekends & public holidays. in theory, it's in but actually it's not yet. like before, a bulk of it will be used to pay cc outstanding balance. hopefully, the remaining will be kept safely in a savings/wadiah account depending on my ability & skills & willpower to stop my cravings for lustful worldly man-made things. ah, materialistic world...

my wife reminded me that if by the age of the mystical number of 40, we don't change for the better, still stuck in this dreamy real world, without stocking up for the hereafter, then our heart might have been blackened and there might be no turning back. how true. how can we not know. and how we choose to ignore.

savanna

my savanna is still left uncut (sob, sob, sob):






i've gotta do it this weekend. my renewed resolution.

pity my daughter for not being able to ride any of her 3 bicycles since quite a while. so, today, I sent all 3 of them for repair. will be ready by tomorrow. she should've got a bigger bicycle (20"?) but that would be later. no promise made.

looks like the "love is blindness" issue has been resolved amicably... good to hear that... gotta go... gotta concentrate watching af final... (yawn!)

Pirus

It's only fair to also mention another set of old school songs originally recorded using a DAT Walkman recorder sometime in 1997 in a room in a rented apartment/house in the US while I was studying there. Then, converted from DAT tape to normal tape. Finally, from normal tape to MP3 format.

All songs were written & performed by Pirus (me) using an acoustic guitar. There are 12 tracks but 1 of them is instrumental. The list of songs are Optimist?, Sorrowfully Vacuous, Patience On Fire, Project Revisited, "Be Like Me", Not A Reality, Intrasituation, Selfish, Local Anthem, Invitation, Nobody's Perfect and (Instrumental). The lyrics are available here.

Loveless

Some nostalgic old school songs from the vault.

Loveless are (were) Pirus (me) on vocals, Sap on guitars, Jig on bass & Bob on drums.

All music & words are by Sap except Moleloud & The Play, music by Sap & Hanif; Next, words by Pirus; and Dream, melody for words by Pirus.

Recorded, mixed & mastered by Brader Man(?) at Hellions Studio, Pertama Complex, KL. Remixed versions remixed by Sap.

Copyright 1995.


Empty
Come and laugh with me
Life’s so empty
I don’t mean to dream
When you’re happy
Come and laugh with me
Life’s so empty
I don’t mean to dream

I can laugh very easily
Far is you
We could be here again
Far is me
I can laugh very easily
Far is you
Again and again

Come and laugh with me
When you’re happy
I don’t mean to dream
Life’s so empty
Come and laugh with me
When you’re happy
I don’t mean to dream

Next
I’m the whole
I’m a part
I’m the rest
I am next

I’m a guard
I’m an eye
I’m the voice
I am next

I’m a waste
I’m a mess
I’m not amazed
I am next

Not too soon
Not too late
Never care
Not a thought

Not to nod
Not to shake
Never care
Not a thought

I am next

Moleloud
Mama breaks my friend’s heart
Papa is no better
But it’s okay with me
But it matters to me

Papa breaks my friend’s feeling
Mama is even worse
But it’s okay with me
But it matters to me

Let me piss you off
Let me break everyone’s heart
It doesn’t matter to you
It doesn’t matter to you

Every man is a liar
Every woman’s a victim
It doesn’t matter to you
It doesn’t matter to you

Maybe
Moonbeam’s here
Wait till I sleep to tell the truth
Moonbeam’s gone
I cannot sleep between my dreams

Moonbeam’s here again
Wait till I sleep to tell the truth
Moonbeam’s gone
I cannot sleep just don’t leave me alone

In my dream I bring your name
For I feel insecure
But I’m still living in fear
Fear of being alone

Maybe

The Play
You can do anything with my mind
You can do anything with my feeling
But I sleep with myself every night

You talk like people would never change
But I know what is going on here
Please don’t sleep with mine tonight

No reason to live as I wanna be
No reason to set my misery free
No reason to live as I wanna be
No reason to stay on

No reason to go on
And I hurt myself
It was just me pretending
Everything is fine

Dream
I’m so touched
With your kindness to me
Even though you feel
Your life is a mere footprint

I’m so glad
That you finally know that
My dream and your dream
Can merge again

Ooh…

When I see you running
With the grace
I wish I can bring
The sunlight and moonbeam

And we will sleep
On the colorful rays
You and I are friends
I’m happy

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"love is blindness"

"love is blindness. i don't want to see." says bono of u2. love is indeed blindness. one is willing to climb the highest mountain. willing to swim across an ocean of lava/fire. nasi lemak buah bidara, sayang selasih hamba lurutkan; buang emak buang saudara, kerana kasih hamba turutkan, which can be loosely translated as: discarding mother & relatives for the sake of lover. how to deal with this problem? hire a certified psychologist or motivational expert. will cost a bomb. if u don't mind. if u have the rm. diy: some say use psychological method. forward or reverse. depending on the scenario & situation. on a case by case basis. some say just scold the guilty parties outright. mano e mano. (spelling?). no filtering and censoring. well, the choice is yours. so are the responsibility & accountability.

my house lawn has almost become a savanna. luckily, it's impossible to attract zebras & giraffes & hyenas & lions. in this peaceful, modern country, we only have those in zoos. it's always difficult for me to spare my time to devote myself & contribute to the soil of the mother earth. despite being the son of the soil. spoiled son of the soil. my target is to do it this morning or evening. further delay will only postpone the work to the next weekend, which will surely be despised by my missus. taking the challenge positively, it's high time to exercise for a lazy bum like me.

b&w & sephia photography looks sooooo vintage. so, from now on, i'll use my existing sony digicam to take photos in b&w & sephia only. red & blue & green will be taken care of by my wife's olympus unit. just wait for my neo-vintage amateur works when i feel like snapping sometime later in the nearer future...

& while u're here, watch these okh & ultraman vs monster vids here...

i am next

the training ended with more future assignments to be done to benefit the company. more work to be done. BUT i doubt it that it will benefit me. knowledge-wise, yes, if i'm willing to embark into the perilous journey into the dungeon of HatredSadnessEnvy. should i decide to stay in this complacent, comfortable, so-called safe domain of InjusticeThreat, that would be a terrible waste of time, energy, money, etc. financially, no benefit at all for me. enough said.

received the power adapter. after the training, at home, checked the fedex online tracking system and the adapter had been delivered and accepted by the front desk. who could wait? so, i went to the office just for the purpose of picking it up. and for dinner as well. my family went back to the hometown & will be coming back today by noon hopefully. sadly, the power adapter looks so cheap, so typical made-in-china. granted, it works fine at home, office & in the car. not tested on pc/notebook for charging & sync-ing yet. the original spoiled power adapter, also made in china, looks way much better & more elegant, despite the design flaw, the so-called worldwide-travel-friendly. anyway, as long as the new power adapter serves its purpose, i'd be grateful enough.

did u hear that mahathir has quit umno? i think he should call it a quit from politics altogether. just stay at home & devote whatever is left of his time serving Allah the Almighty. and that advice applies to me & u as well... i am next

new template. new look

so, my resolution not to ever change the template has failed miserably. yet, changing it is like a snake changing its skin. it feels kinda like a brand new day. like a new hair style. like a new government. like a new job. like anything else new. change for the better. not for the worse. how long can we stay at 1 particular place before starting to feel bored to death? what options do we have? why we & not just me?

so, my new resolution now is to properly pen my thoughts in properly arranged paragraphs like in academic writings. i know it will make it more readable & user-friendly. but somehow i don't feel like pleasing others. why should i? give me 100 valid reasons why i should do so. the validation will of course be done by me & me alone. so, my next new resolution is to properly CAPITALIZE the alphabets at their deserved & designated locations. that will be implemented really3 later...

the training that I'm attending now is another of the company's carefully devised ways to squeeze the brilliant [or in my case, stupid] ideas out of the exhausted, having-many-dead-cells-already, brains of its coolies. this morning/today will be the last day of it. but for sure there will be follow-up assignments to be submitted. do what u can do in your capacity as the ultimate machine of the shareholders.

just checked with fedex online tracking system that my atom life's power adapter is still stuck at klia since yesterday's 8:33 am. when will my electronic suffering end??? i just hope that it's made its move but somehow the status hasn't yet been updated. just my powerless hope... impian akan dicapai...

the latest update just now today at 6:39 am: on fedex vehicle for delivery from klia sepang. i doubt it that i'll get it by today...

so'u' + other trivials

spent many hours finding house for rent for so'u'. house for rent is very hard to find nowadays in paka. with so'u' & wife before noon + my wife after noon. at noon, my wife cooked us her specialty: chicken rice. yummy! i'm not really picky about food. i can mentekedarah almost anything minus stone, wood & the forbidden. but her chicken rice is indeed good. in the end, so'u' chose to stay in a room in a house on the seaside of the main road, with the other 2 rooms occupied by the other 2 occupants each, 1 of them being iqbal from bppa it. what a minuscule world. in the melody of what a wonderful world. so so'u', welcome to trg, specifically paka/kerteh. he's with pgb/gppa now. reminds me of my intrastate movings previously. hopefully, his family will follow suit very2 soon. 1 thing that made me really mad today was the fact that the power adapter for my o2 xda atom life was spoiled today. 1 of the connectors connecting the main adapter & the plug somehow got broken. so, i have ordered the equivalent from expansys spore. i really hope that i'll get it asap. charging from a pc/notebook usb port takes ages!!! so, got no time today to remove all those wild grass. probably this weekend. forgot to mention that my wife bought a brand new suzuki step 125 sc 1-2 weeks ago. it's for short-distance travels to e.g. wet market, surau, etc. the surau part...insyaAllah. my wife really wants me to go there but i want the urge to come sincerely from my own heart. that's what my heart told me anyway... :) got mail from oz embassy/gov that my family's ETAs/visas have been approved. may the travel be blessed by Allah. one must not be too happy. mygrrreenoil: is it worth a try? let my friends try it 1st b4 i do. time to sleep. b4 that, time to solat isya'. i wish it's tahajjud. will be attending hse's aspect impact & risk analysis training for the next 3 days at residence resort starting from tomorrow morning. so, gotta sleep early. judging from the time now, i'm sure it will be close to 1 am. if i wake up at 6 (close to 7: enough time to solat subuh), my sleeping hours would be about 6 hours which are sufficient for an aging adult like me. but normally we always don't have enough. caffeine pls! the 2nd thing that pisses me off is the fact that the torrent file for the finale episodes 16-17 of desperate housewives's season 4 somehow gets stuck while downloading. i will not say any obscene word but will stay patient & patient & patient & patient & !@#$%^&*()_+={}|[]\:";'<>,.?/~`

a week of special days, dull work days & future travel

so many special days. mother's day on may 11's sunday. happy mother's day to all mothers on this planet. my mom, wife & mom-in-law included. teacher's day on may16. happy teacher's day to all teachers around the world. my wife included as well. engagement anniversary day on may 15. the 10th year. the celebration is for the sake of reminiscing it. for my wife & me. my whole week was filled with work dissatisfactions. i don't feel like elaborating on them. yesterday, i managed to vomit out my work dissatisfactions to a friend of mine in kuantan. and the night before, to my wife, which formed part of the series of lectures of my work dissatisfactions to her lately. airasia (specifically airasia x) was having subzero, zero international & zero perth fare promotions during these few days. thanks to mas who had started to have zero fare promo before that. competitions do benefit consumers. got no interest in the subzero fair but the international one really caught my wife's attention. she wanted to go to gold coast/brisbane. we've almost got the seats but they were taken when we've almost completed the payment. darn it! luckily, we managed to grab the seats to perth later on. and it's zero fare! well, we still got charged for the airport taxes, fuel surcharges, etc. anyhow, we'll be going there sometime in feb next year. hopefully...if there're no other unforeseen obstacles. we can plan but ALLAH will always be the ultimate executor & decision maker. anyway, i can't help but shout it out here anyway: here we come the land down under!!!

bakti

a picture says a thousand words. so, 58 pictures would say 58 thousand words. that's a lot of words! see the pictures HERE. pity anonymity...

govt staff can retire until 58 years old now, up 2 years from 56 set previously. good news for some, bad news for the other...

monsoon season

during the monsoon cup 2007 in dec, i went to visit the fair/booths there. here are the photos taken highlighting the plan for the future ktcc (kuala terengganu city center). i fully support the plan if it benefits trg grassroots. if not, it can go to HELL & not come back!!!

still no outcome of the sexual harassment case. very interesting... i was invited again to be 1 of the committee members of the golf tournament event this year but i refused. not worth the effort & hard work. being a kuli batak & having to spend SO MUCH TIME, ELECTRICITY, ENERGY, PROCESSOR POWER, MEMORY, ETC at home editing golf videos. really5 not worth it.

however, to be fair to my boss, i "volunteered after being asked" to be part of the program bakti, serving primary school kids for that adopted school. being a servant & slave to the co & skool. neglecting the ultimate obligation to GOD. OMG...

photolinks

batu buruk beach
masjid kristal
faissol's wedding

wishful thinking

yesterday, the taxi driver who took me to klia rumbled about how the price of goods & food has increased tremendeously over the years. for example, a specific brand of butter which he has always bought used to cost RM7++ but one shocking day, it suddenly cost RM12++. how come i didn't really notice or take notice that prices of goods & food have increased? but i do realize that with each passing year & with each salary increment, my nett salary minus all those expenses is almost the same. maybe my "kerak" is increasing as well? back to the taxi driver. he's also paying RM165 per day for the hire purchase of his taxi. i was deadly surprised! so, how does he manage to pay? he simply has to make many trips per day. min 4. max 6-7 but that would make him work until late night. his car, waja, can utilize natural gas as well. a ngv. however, i was told that newer versions of waja running on campro engine performs badly on gas. it jerks every once in a while. he claimed that other cars do not have the same problem. well, what else can I say about malaysian cars? after all, i'm also using waja now. i'm lucky that my engine is mitsubishi.

today, i was initially being the sole makmum for an imam during afternoon prayer. so, i stood a little bit behind him to his right. later, a distinguished gentleman came and stood on my right horizontally. actually, he's supposed to stand directly behind the imam & then, i was supposed to move back joining him in the newly formed line/rank/"saf". so, i was perplexed not knowing what to do, whether to move to the back like i normally do, leaving him at the front right or not. so, i did nothing but just followed the imam. that gentleman did the same thing as well. i should ask an ulama about this scenario.

i'd like to be an avid reader but i just could not be one. any advice? i think i've bought reasonably a lot of books but so far only managed to finish a few of them. i also would like to be a musician/songwriter. of course, just for fun & as a hobby. but, now, no new songs have come out of my head after the 12th or so song composed like 10 or 11 years ago. writing a novel? that looks even remotely possible. meaning nearly impossible. but anything can happen. hopefully, this boring blog of mine will serve as a starting point for me to let the creative part of me, if any, flow smoothly. and get it caressed so that it will blossom over time. just a wishful thinking of a nobody. (note: nobody is perfect)

in kl

what am i doing here???

yesterday:
it's d-day (di day). d-day for the sexual harassment case. it's a landmark case. the one that will set precedent over future cases if any. at 3, i'd to go already to catch my flight to kl in kuantan. went to kuantan by cab. then, took the flight to klia. from klia, hopped on a klia budget limo/taxi to crown plaza mutiara hotel. in the hotel room, did some office work & watched "Number 23" starring Jim Carrey until almost 2 am before finally passing out on the cosy, cold hotel bed.

today:
had complimentary bfast at the coffee house on the main lobby floor. then, went to the IBM Oil & Gas Event at the lower lobby floor. very technically challenging. maybe 70% of the contents are meant for oil & gas engineers. eyeing for the lucky draw prizes: 2 units of iPod Classic 80GB but others were luckier. but everybody got free 2GB usb thumbdrive anyway. it has IBM logo on it. the event finished at 4.30pm but since my flight to kuantan WILL BE at 10 pm tonight, i went to low yat plaza 1st to buy 8gb sd card & card reader for my asus eee pc 4g 701. had dinner there as well. the taxi (return ticket bought last night) to klia called me just now, waiting in front of low yat plaza. gotta make a move to withdraw some money & catch the taxi...

pantun haywire

the day b4 yesterday
faissol got married that day
we (my family & i) went there with my daughter's auntie & 2 of her cousins
it was raining though it wasn't raining season

yesterday
first day at work after so many days of being away
today, sexual harassment DI will be held
has my lending of my CC become an issue as well?

today
i'm gonna be your foreseer
i'm going to kl, a place of far away
more updates soon, so have no fear

weekend in kt (balik kg)

my whole morning today was filled with resting, sleeping & watching supernatural on my asus eee pc 701. after noon, went to the overly-hyped & still-under-construction-but-has-been-officiated masjid kristal/taman tema islam (islam theme park) on pulau wan man, terengganu. looks like it has been stripped off of its title of being an island. it's so hot over there that we decided to properly visit the inside/surrounding of masjid kristal later in the evening. then, we hang around batu buruk beach while having fast/junk food "courtesy with cost" of kfc. around 5.30p, we went to masjid kristal again. it's not hot anymore there. so, we had our photo sessions there using my sony cyber-shot dsc-t10 & my wife's olympus mju 850sw digital cameras. people told me that there's a fee to go there but at the moment there's none. maybe in the future there will be. maybe they woud charge for the monuments only. who would charge to pray/solat in a masjid/mosque anyway? but anything can happen... for dinner, we had hot plate noodle. we've been having it since 2000, since our daughter was still a new born baby, and we still like it even though the preparation & taste are sometimes good & sometimes not. tonight it's not that good. most of the time, it is though. enough for today, wanna watch supernatural season 3 illegally downloaded from the internet. still haven't watched this week's latest bleach (if they've got any)...

today

the last place that i would go in KT to park my car is mydin mall parking lot during weekends & holidays. so many people are flocking there. today, i had to circle the lot for a few times before finally settling on an ok spot. faissol called me informing that he's getting married this sat. congrats! he invited me to join his group (rombongan) to go together to his bride-to-be's house. i can't think now coz too sleepy. i'm gonna go to sleep & let this wash all over me...

yesterday (again?)

yup! at last, yap did call me trying to lure me into his biz world of unit trust, as a member & not as an agent. he even offered to see me away at klia this afternoon/evening - my flight to kt was at 7:50pm. as for madet, he's so bz as a manager (?) that he couldnt make it for lunch. well, maybe next time. it's my last day of training. klia taxi which I had paid beforehand & booked came to fetch me at 5. after checking in, yap arrived. i expected him (really?) to wear a full suit with bush jacket & tie but i was deeply dismayed. so, the episode of cheap sale promotions started at a food court in klia [sorry yap... :)]. he's trying not so hard enuff to convince me that his unit trust is the best. i heard that the other unit trust is the best/no 1. well, i gave him required particulars & signed his forms anyway like signing blank checks. he promised he won't submit them until i'm convinced enough. at kt INTERNATIONAL airport, still under construction, my beloved wife fetched me & took me home (parents-in-law's). long time no see.

so which unit trust is the best? whichever is, (unit trusts or even okh,) the truth is: hardwork & persistence with a little bit or some wits & wisdom are still the best survival kits.