nobody's perfect

i wish i was flipped once
so that i could flip someone else
i wish my eyes wouldn't twinkle
so that i wouldn't miss life not even for a split second
i wish i could fly high in the sky
but it is already everyone's wish
i wish i have never lied
but there's no way i will always be pissed off
my eyes are not heavy
i wish they are
my songs are but a few
i wish there are more
my heart works hard
i wish it would slow down
anatomically disabled
i wish it would slow down

invitation

please feel free to waste our time
fearless of you
come and join the fun now
the fun is here to stay
through the air
view the air
breathe the air
wipe your feet and wash your hands
fearless of you and you alone
if you don't mind that we don't mind
the fun is here to stay
if this really makes you proud of me
then it makes me proud of you
this is the achievement for today
this is not something to be proud of
this is the pleasure of the maker
this is everyone unlike yourself

local anthem

they came to me
and wasted all my life
they still come to me
they still wanna waste my life
strike me down to the ground
as green as the grass, dominant brown sand
as blue as the sky, the rain falls
those roofless ruins
all soaked
struck down to the ground in a matter of time
buried deep inside, deep inside the earth i'm dead

selfish

there are times
when you are so depressed
and you wish you were dead
trying to win their hearts
but yours is left alone
losing everything
eating marbles everyday
spitting marbles everyday
you know it happens
you made it happen
getting weaker everyday
getting dumber everyday
you know it happens
you made it happen
now it's time
to see you glow
and your wish is my wish too
now i'm there
if not for you
for me
i'll be there
not for you
for me

intrasituation

situationalists versus whatever
terms taken from somewhere
bombastic words escape my mind
plain words flow like a river
the creation of a standard
no need to jump nor to dive
the outside and the inside out
well come in and take no side
(i saw a rainbow)
impressionism on the tv
who is going to express what?
what do they want to show the world?
what do they want to achieve?
the earth is aging
how old is she?
why bother about her not you?
how old are you?
(i pointed to the rainbow)
i'd win for sure if you'd lose
i'd pull the trigger of your life
i'd like to laugh, ha, ha, ha, ha
i'd like to smile :)
i'd smell something burning
i'd burn something smelly

not a reality

it's not that easy
to face it
i'll never finish it
that might be the fact
i've been trying out for you
but everything's in vain
i'd better stop
and quit
enemies! they're everywhere!
enemies! it's not fair!

"be like me"

to sleep like a princess
no pillow and no bed
lying on a concrete floor
paving the way for other concrete inhabitants
you said, "be like me"
to talk like a chimpanzee
no better things to do
it's fine with you but not with me
laughing like a hyena but not quite a hyena
you said, "be like me"
"be like me"
to cry like a baby
to mourn like a widow
to rule like a daddy
to follow like a shadow
i do hope it's my own shadow

project revisited

stranded on this island
with a rope & a torchlight
figured everything's done already
still more things to come
who's on the run?
no one could figure out yet
stranded in this situation
not so glad
why were you so nice?
weren't we friends yet
of all the elements...
off this topic
have a nice cup of coffee
and a well deserved break
marching to this one hall
in a line like a long snake
a minute's worth thousands of hours
but i had my watch
that wasn't right
hypocrisy's everywhere
stranded in this situation
not so glad
stranded on this island
not so glad

patience on fire

i want to reach out
i want to reach out
my hands are too short
you're getting away
you're getting away
why can't you stay
hell with patience
i'm on fire
i've tried too hard
ain't running away
no! but i'm so weak & tired
you haven't tried hard
i don't understand
what's your problem?
hell with patience
i'm on fire

sorrowfully vacuous

i'm blank, i'm blank: fill in
no chance, no chance: burning
no way, no way, crying
i'll play, i'll play, mimicry
sor-row-ful-ly-va-cu-ous-(self)

optimist?

rushing out everyday
i'm going somewhere i don't know
all things around me they look so pale
i feel so sad, i feel so low
the time is up but i'm still there
i'm lost there, i'm stuck there
i cry for help, i scream, i yell
am i in hell? no one can tell
i hope this is just a dream
i hope i'm just imagining
i wanna go back home
where i belong
for long
i have no say
but it's okay
i hope one day
it will change
it will change...

How to deal with an asshole from hell!!!

Tunjuk ajarku sifu...

gadgets vs none of those

my life is full of gadgets & the need to manage & recharge them. wish i could live a simpler life of the yesteryears. (or was it really simpler? hopefully no more complicated than during my childhood life)

Powercut

Blackout
Power Trip
No electricity
Nothing

An old friend of mine (& effectively of my wife's as well)

I (& she) hasn't (haven't) met him since end of 1991. His wife is not in the photo below since she was the photographer...plus she's just given birth to their 3rd baby. Guess which one is I, she & he. (Please ignore the halflings).











Oopsss...wrong photo...too lazy to change anyway

Test post from email

I admit

This is neat

Thus I exit

Lest I quit

Demam yang tak kebah

Sakit yang tak sudah
Benci yang menular
Dengki kian mekar
Tuju yang tersasar
Buntu ketar-ketar
Sudu makan ruang
Budu dalam orang
Aku yang tak kebah
Kamu yang tak sudah

Mungkinkah Tertawa

Haruskah ku padamkan
Kedukaan ini
Dengan titis air mata
Yang menyayat hati
Atau ku biar dalam
Keadaan begini

Haruskah diriku
Mempamer sedih
Di depan dirimu
Yang tiada sudi
Mungkinkah tertawa
Aku menangis sendiri

*Aku bertanya pada
Diri oh mengapa
Mengapa bisa terjadi
Begini rupa
Aku terseksa

#Sejambak kasih mekar harapan
Terhapus di pertengahan jalan
Gugur bagaikan dedaunan
Tercemar kehormatan cinta

Apa salahku hingga
Kau berubah laku

(guitar solo taking over)
(Repeat *)
(Repeat # to fade)

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new years

it is. gregorian. hijri new year of one4two7 is just a matter of a few days away... oh, chinese one b4 that

seems forever that i last blogged. heck. what'sh dh purposhe ov dhish bhlogg aniwaye?!

missing writing though: my working takes my writing's toll [whatever dat means {mean>). all for $&¢

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