"there will be blood"

that's the title of a movie about finding oil in the us in the late 19th/early 20th century. i bought the soundtrack to that movie just because the score was written by jonny greenwood of my all-time favorite band radiohead, currently the most popular & famous non-mainstream band in the world. so, looks like it's inevitable now. with the price of the world's crude oil per barrel at about usd135 now, it's not really a surprise (i'm lying here) that pak lah had to announce the increase in petrol, diesel & electricity price. at rm2.70 now from the previous rm1.92, all malaysians now have to spend more money on petrol if their car travel usage remains the same. despite the rebates, we still have to pay more. so, what can we & i do? u wanna know my plan? at the office, eat less outside & more inside. fasting is 1 great way which gives me a lot of benefits other than money saving. u can check out the net on the other benefits. i can't think of any other plan but at the moment, that would suffice. in conclusion, the government sucks & my salary increment is worth nothing. hopefully, there will be no blood...

sukma means heart?

yesterday, i spent almost the whole morning sleeping due to tiredness of staying up quite late the night before. after noon, went for shopping at the grandeur of hypermarket in kt, which is mydin hypermarket. then, tried to look for the power adapter replacement for my daughter's portable dvd player but couldn't find one. the original adapter was damaged still not beyond recognition but beyond use. that's what happened when so many hands were using it. also tried to look on the net but in vain. maybe, i should try harder. in the city, tried to look for a new pair of sandals of my preference but couldn't find two! what a city...

in the evening, went to assimilate ourselves among the sukma crowd/audience. ourselves include my whole family, sis-in-law & my wife's nephews. unfortunately, the gymnastics event of the day had come to its closure. but, we were savoring the beauty and marvel of the new & grand sports complex anyway. and spent some money for the kids to have some light snacks, meals, drinks & fun on the primitive merry-go-round. then, we spent some more money gulping big glass fruit juice at the famous big glass fruit juice restaurant. i had the biggest glass amongst us. (and u're complaining about your bigger stomach...)

today, in the morning, we of the above + another of my bro-in-law managed to go to the same sports complex to the indoor stadium to watch gymnastics there. the gymnasts were undoubtedly very skillful. nevertheless, 1 of them broke or sprinkled her neck. not dead yet but injured. another injured her knee. well, that's why we call it a sport. after lunch, with my daughter who suddenly wanted to follow me to the city after having a quarrel with her cousin, went to tmpoint to settle about my billings & the possibility of rebates. still not solved yet but at least i was comforted by the fact that my elder bro-in-law who's working with tm is taking care of it now. then, got a car wash to wash my car. arrived home (parents-in-law's) late at 6 pm. we of the above planned to see another sukma event, swimming, from 5-7 pm, near batu burok beach, but considering that we had only 1 hour to do so, including the journey to there, which we believed that the road to there would be very congested, we canceled our plan for today. until next time...

neo-post-100th post

somehow, blogger.com & blogspot.com got f#%ked up big time and so i
couldn't logon to update my blog...

here's what i have for today if today is still referring to monday:

i just realized that my previous post was my 100th
post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm celebrating it with 100
asterisks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
200!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now, it's 300!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...whatever....

if previously it seems like the system was experimenting with me, this
time i'll be experimenting with the system & let's see how low i can
go. let's see how low it can go. let's just wait & see. no need to
pray for the betterment of the system. it's better without.

today's my 1st day of being on leave from work. still went to town,
sorry, it's city since earlier this year, to settle some personal
matters. got a call from my contractor who got a call from my boss re:
a really5 petty problem at the office in the controlLED room. got
really5 pissed off with those in that room bcoz the so-called problem
is NOT a problem at all and should have been resolved before this or
at least during the day & especially during office hours. but, being
a nice company citizen, i gave my instructions to the charity
contractor on how to settle the not-really-a problem anyway. at the
same time, i called the room & the personnel who picked up the phone
became the victim of my frustration & for venting my anger and
dissatisfaction. your secret is my collateral. i wonder if they
really require more than 1 workstations in the middle of the night. i
thought they normally would just watch mpg & listen to mp3 & watch
soccer & watch youtube & download this & download that & the dirty
list goes on... your dirty secrets are my safe collateral...

yesterday, my ex-indirect boss came & i managed to voice my
dissatisfactions to him as well. well, he's the one who started to
tell me about his with the company, now his ex. despite his advice to
do otherwise, i will carry on with my anchovy plan against the sharks
and just eat, drink, sleep, wait & see...

everybody pleads not guilty but a victim is still a victim & the
damage is already done & life goes on & on & on...

--

pirus
http://colorofpirus.blogspot.com

missed days

3 days ago: all of a sudden, sap called me & informed me that he's in kb. he planned to meet me in kt, assuming that i was there but since i was in paka, we planned to meet there instead, of course. that reminds me of my stint in kk, when i also called him when i was already there with my family. kinda late info. when i met him right before friday prayers/solat, he's not alone! he's with bad, another ex-college friend. we had some light drink + meal, sorta pre-lunch, before i went for solat. we met again at mcd kerteh for lunch and later at fizi's house. fizi is yet another ex-college friend, now working with a company which my company is serving subserviently. fyi, sap & bad were on a nationwide road trip, traveling by car around the country from west to north to east to south and back to west.

2 days ago: yesterday evening, meaning the evening of 3 days ago, my family & i suddenly decided to go back to kt. today, meaning 2 days ago, i spent most of my day in kt town settling personal matters. sent my wife's car for repair. it's making this very strange noise since the past few days. it turned out to be caused by the worn out brake pad & it cost a bomb to repair but it had to be repaired anyway. tried to solve the celcom hha & tm streamyx billing dispute but still not yet solved. they asked me to come back on wednesday while they're checking & settling the issue. my aim is just to get the rebates for the "extra" charge that i was paying since the last 2-3 months. on another note, i hate it when people are taking advantage of others... on yet another note, it was so jam-packed in kt because of the official opening of sukma. the roads to/from kt via the bridge and the old road were all congested. talk about modernization, this is what u'll get.

1 day ago: just another boring day at work. departed from kt. i know that starting my own biz is the best but i just don't know what kind of biz is the best for me. mlm? no way! i was thinking of writing but looking at my situation & attitude now, i don't think that would kick off. composing songs? i've been having this writer's block syndrome since i started working in the corporate world. no wonder artists who used to work in a corporate world normally had to quit the world since they will never ever be able to balance between the 2 careers. so, looks like i'm stuck "eating payroll" for the rest of my life...

after work, settled a few things at home before driving back to kt. since the light bulb of the front porch of my house always went out using the around rm2 bulb, this time, i had replaced it with a more expensive rm19.90 bulb, claimed to be able to last up to 3 years. when i think about it, 1 day can be considered as up to 3 years as well...hmmm...

i have a bike & a complaint

picked up the free bicycle. instead of taking it for myself to be used for exercising around the village, i opted to take a kid's bicycle for my daughter. if i'm to take an adult bicycle, it will rot at its place for display anyway. i already have many avenues to exercise: that static bicycle in the living room which actual name i forgot, the push-up bench in the 3rd cum store room, etc. i also don't know if there's even etc. my daughter was so happy to have a better bicycle. so, to officiate it, since she looked so impatient to use it immediately, i allowed her to follow me disposing of my household waste to the nearest local council's garbage bin. i was on scooter & she followed me on her new, shiny bicycle, at night... kids are indeed very impatient... can cause their parents to lose their patience sometimes... :)

every time a muslim tried to justify a proper islamic dressing code for muslim women, there will always be a fellow muslim, (if he/she even deserves to be called a muslim,) who will sort of fight to death against that proposal. i don't really care if it comes from a non-muslim, but a muslim himself/herself??? i'm not the one who can determine whether he/she will/should rot in hell or not in the hereafter. however, i think i have my right in these modern days of so-called freedom & equality to say this to him/her: may you rot on earth!

bollywood & change of heart

mesyaer to nehe... bollywood oh bollywood! what art thou? what do thou have behind thou? have thou had thy dinner yet? art thou coming for dinner? what benefits art thou giving?

saw the news that ezam, ex-pkr has officially joined umno. the rumors have been circulating for a few days already & now it's confirmed to be true. he mentioned that he joined umno coz he needs a correct "fighting" platform but i noticed that he never mentioned his fight is for the truth or otherwise. whatever the reasons behind his action, i hope he will stick to his usual self of fighting against & exposing wrongdoings without any fear or favor.

got feedback & i have also realized that putting up all those songs here really3 slow down the process of loading this page. so, i'll just put 1 song at a time. once i feel like it's time for a new song, i'll change. if there's any request for a particular song, i'll put it up, still 1 at a time. like the songs are popular enough to deserve such a request... :)

decision making is a pain in the 45s process

the ceo still wanted me to think about me moving out of it into other dept!!! give it a thorough thought, he said. there's no future for it in this company. it's better if i can give my decision sooner than later. how could i directly say no to a ceo... what should i do? what would u do?

i've been thinking of getting my own domain name. coming up with the right & available name is 1 thing. getting a reliable domain name/hosting company is another. paying a reasonably cheap annual fee is yet another. the purpose is just to point this blog to that domain name. not really sure if it's really worth it or not.

my wife's eldest brother & family are at my home now. in transit from kt before departing to kl early tomorrow morning. he told me that he used to drive straight to kl without needing to spend the night somewhere in between the journey. i also notice that lately i also can feel tired & sleepy easily while driving to/from kl. sometimes, i have to stop by the roadside to take a supposed-to-be-short-but-ended-up-long nap. how time is running out for all of us...

bonus nostalgic posting

at last the salary & bonus were in!!! later than the rest but they're in anyway. a late bloomer. so, i'm still gonna jump in happiness... yahoo! yippa! undre! yet, all those will be gone in a split second... to settle whatever debts that i have that u can think of. actually, it's good by the way. soon, i'll be debt-free, ridden of all those feelings of a heavy debtor... well, not really completely debt-free but almost...

i'm being a little bit nostalgic lately. that's why u can see all the old school songs on the left. they're gonna take a very while to download/load. sorry for the time & bandwidth that they're gonna cost. and sorry for the very2 bad recordings. what do u expect from an amateur/group of amateur, part-time, leisurely, so-called musicians anyway? i think all of us were hobbyists. and we were a bunch of lazy students who had no money and were living off the govt fund, who in turn is "living off" the taxpayers' money, and most of us are paying the govt back now. i for one am paying a quarter of the loan right now since 2003. still have about 5-6 years to go.

a little bit about work, though i don't really have the heart to mention about it here. the erp application is using the new isp line in the small island down under. previously, it was on another isp. but the new uk-based isp is about to be acquired by somebody else now. their stock has been suspended & the ceo has resigned due to bank pressure. i read somewhere that an india's isp is buying the new isp. last read that the deal is already done but not really sure if it's really india's isp. my main point is that i have to reconfigure all erp application user's workstations to point to the new line! quite a troublesome work to do...

gotta have a bath & go to work now...

help! i'm stuck!

why is everybody trying to lure it guys out from it? 1 attempt after another. are they really sincere? are they under pressure? how could i tell?

stumbled upon another old friend by the name of aidil azha. he's with exxon mobil now. after work, helped so'u' again going to his potential rented house in kerteh. don't know if he's gonna like the house. up to his preference.

the 3 bikes were ready at noon but i was only able to pick 'em up at 9pm++. since i've got the bicycle voucher, i'm thinking of getting a bigger & better bicycle for my daughter this weekend. she's already 8 years old but still using bikes for 5 years old! pity her...

got my salary slip with bonus inside but since i'm using a non-conventional, non-official bank from the point of view of the company, the crediting will always be late by 1-5 days depending on many factors such as weekends & public holidays. in theory, it's in but actually it's not yet. like before, a bulk of it will be used to pay cc outstanding balance. hopefully, the remaining will be kept safely in a savings/wadiah account depending on my ability & skills & willpower to stop my cravings for lustful worldly man-made things. ah, materialistic world...

my wife reminded me that if by the age of the mystical number of 40, we don't change for the better, still stuck in this dreamy real world, without stocking up for the hereafter, then our heart might have been blackened and there might be no turning back. how true. how can we not know. and how we choose to ignore.

savanna

my savanna is still left uncut (sob, sob, sob):






i've gotta do it this weekend. my renewed resolution.

pity my daughter for not being able to ride any of her 3 bicycles since quite a while. so, today, I sent all 3 of them for repair. will be ready by tomorrow. she should've got a bigger bicycle (20"?) but that would be later. no promise made.

looks like the "love is blindness" issue has been resolved amicably... good to hear that... gotta go... gotta concentrate watching af final... (yawn!)